Procrastination Ruined my Life
Now I’m killing it with kindness.
I am a master of procrastination. Seriously. If I can put something off, I will, regardless of the consequences.
This habit has had a profound impact on my life, my career, and my self-esteem. I’d be lying if I said that I could see the positives. There are no positives. It really truly sucks.
There is nothing more frustrating than knowing you need to do something, understanding exactly what is required to do it, knowing that you are completely capable of doing it, fully appreciating the benefits and purpose of doing it, having full awareness of the consequences of not doing it, and still JUST NOT DOING IT.
The more aware I become that this cycle is beginning, the deeper and deeper it gets. The more I try to motivate myself to do the thing, the more resistance I have to it. The more time passes, the bigger a “deal” the fact that I haven’t done it becomes. Eventually, even thinking about the thing creates such anxiety that I go straight back into avoidance and distraction.
When I have a “thing” that needs doing, I can’t allow myself to do anything else that might be on my list because I need to prioritize the “thing”. So then nothing else gets done either, and I end up spending the whole day scrolling social media, feeling like a piece…
